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Monday, April 30, 2012

Miscarriage #8

Everything was fine so I went shopping and while tryin on clothes I felt a small gush so I left to chk n the bathroom and sure enough had a small amt of blood. I thought ok not to panic theres only a lil and theres no cramping so im ok. I continue to try on clothes and left to eat came home cleaned the room and sat to watch t.v... there was no more bleeding. Then out of no where more blood and then cramping. I was sad, I knew what was happening and I just sat there I had already placed a pad just in case so I went to take an ibuprofen and sat back dwn. I told DH what happened and he just looked dwn and didnt say anything. Later he said its ok we knw this was a risk so will just try again and gv me a hug, and I finally cried. I hurts so much that I cant carry a baby to term. I looked into maybe shrinking the fibroids myself and I basiclly hv to go on a diet. I hv to stop eating certain foods and mk diffrent choices so Im gonna try it and see if maybe it makes a diffrence on the fibroids and see if maybe baby is able to survive better. I just figure these fibroids are taking all the blood supply and baby might even be tryin to attach to one instead of the lining I dont know I just knw I hv to try something diffrent.

Thursday, April 26, 2012

Little Steps

I decided I'm gonna try and pretend I'm not pregnant, lol. I'm gonna go through out my day as if nothings changed, keep my appts and set alarms on my phone for certain milestones just to remind me that as of now there is a baby. My days are going by to slow and I figured if I keep myself or better yet my mind busy then my 12 weeks should fly by, then 14 & 16 & 18... If I mk it this far and everything is still normal then I will be 50% happy and 50% done. The rest of the time I will feel a whole lot better and hv more faith that this pregnancy will be successful. 1st goal is to mk it till Mon, I hv an appt then, so weekend then appt. Little steps is the key to no worries.

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Pregnancy Scare

I am so scared of mc'ing this pregnancy. I'm so early, I don't even feel pregnant, only 2 signs are not that much sore boobs and my test that I keep looking at to see if its real. I'm thinking about testing again just to mk sure...I'm all set up for my first OB appt in 2 weeks but I'm not sure I'll even mk it. Yesterday I was busy in the street and by the time I came home I was tired, my body was tired, I felt these short Sharp pinches where baby is and I got really nervous. I just don't want to think about it any more, especially if these thoughts are gonna drive me crazy, I'm gonna look into some relaxation techniques cuz I can feel my blood pressure going up. I'm nervous but my passed mc were most likely caused by a chromosome defect or genetic disorder so if this baby is strong enough to mk it with no problems then I shouldn't b nervous, if there is a problem then my body will reject an embryo that's not gonna mk it so this will turn out the way it should. i'll be praying for a healthy pregnancy and baby. If not there's always next time...

Sunday, April 22, 2012

FINALLY BFP!!

This is what I got Fri, April 20 on my moms Bday. Its also the day my AF was due, I thought for sure I'd get it by night fall but it never came. My husbands celebrating his Bday on May 26 and I had been working out to fit into my dress cuz its not stretchable but when AF didnt show I thought I might need to stop. Then I got this pic this morning,(Sunday, April 22)
Which means not only no more jumping around but no more drinking including May 26 which was going to be celebrated at a VIP section at a downtown club. You know what, if this baby makes it out good and healthy it would all be worth the sacrifice of this one night cuz yes I am a drinker and not a beer drinker but a liqueur drinker. I am so happy I finally get another chance of pregnancy but because of passed MC's Im also cautiously scared. I'll post any updates due to #8 pregnancy so KMFX! YAY baby on the way,